where YOU been?

Don't blame me!  I have been busy saving the world from zombies and killing vampires.  That would be quite a noble excuse for not blogging after so donkey long.  So what's new folks?  After being absent for so long I still have the cheek to ask such a question.  Gawd!  What have I become?!

Ok.  I admit, I was feeling a little lazy and the mood to blog seems to have fade away.  No worries~  If you see this blog means I have somehow found a way to reignite the dying flame that almost died along with the Autumn leaves.  

As we all move into the end of November, December can be seen in the not-so-far distance waving happily at us.  Looking at the days that I have been absent, it struck me - what on earth have I been doing all this while?  Well for starters, I have experienced a few new interesting things like observing the salmons going upstream to spawn, snow fight, getting my driving license in Vancouver (YAY!), interviews, seminars, work, movies, hiking, meeting new friends, clubbing, and the list goes on.  Indeed it has been fun and interesting but having said that, deep down I still felt something was missing but oh well~

So, as I was mentioning December is drawing closer by the seconds.  What have YOU guys been doing eh (a new slang Im using to fit into the Canadian society ^^~)?  As for me, I am already watching Christmas movies, listening to Christmas carols and very much in the Christmas mood!  I even made a snowman.   Beat that! *YAYERS!  

The shopping malls has started to hang up Christmas deco, streets are filled with christmas lighting and if you know me personally.  That excites me soooo much!  Just loving the night scene, walking down the street, window shopping with the cold air blowing against my face while sipping on my favorite hot chocolate from Blenz Coffee.  I promise you guys to take some pictures once I fix my phone.  Yes, I am attempting to fix my phone myself.  Dismantling it piece by piece and changing the screen of my only Apple product.  

With Christmas coming around the corner.  Allow me to wish YOU my warmest Blessed Christmas.  Remember~  Christmas is really not about getting drunk and Santa Claus.  Its celebrating a special day, the birth of baby Jesus.  

 

Stay Motivated

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure, beyond measure.

Ima show you, how great I am.

Last night I cut the light off in my bedroom, hit the switch, and was in the bed before the room was dark.

Only last week, I murdered a rock, injured a stone, hospitalized a brick, Im so mean I make medicine sick.

This kids gonna be the best kid in the world.
This kids gonna be somebody better than anybody I ever knew.

Ima show you, how great I am.

I have wrastled with an alligator, I done tussled with a whale, I done handcuffed lightnin, thrown thunder in jail.

Ima show you, how great I am.

All you chumps are gonna bow when I whoop him, all of you, I know you got him, I know youve got him picked, but the mans in trouble, Ima show you how great I am.

But somewhere along the line you changed, you stopped being you.
You let people stick a finger in your face and tell you youre no good, and when things got hard, you started looking for something to blame, like a big shadow.
Let me tell you something you already know, the world aint all sunshine and rainbows, its a very mean and nasty place and I dont care how tough you are, it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it.
You, me, or nobody, is gonna hit as hard as life; but it aint about how hard you hit, its about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward, how much you can take and keep moving forward.
Thats how winning is done.


Cause if youre willin to go through all the battling you gotta go through to get to where you wanna get, whos got the right to stop you.
I mean maybe some of you guys got something you never finished, something you really want to do, something you never said to somebody, something.
And youre told no even after you pay your dues, whos got the right to tell you that, who? Nobody.
Its your right to listen to your gut, it aint nobodys right to say no, after you earn the right to be where you want to be and do what you want to do.

Now if you know what youre worth, then go out and get what youre worth.
But youve gotta be willing to take the hits.
And not pointing fingers saying you aint where you wanna be because of him, or her, or anybody.
Cowards do that and that aint you!
Youre better than that!

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

Sunrise

Look and see, the sun rise in front of the river
Will light the world,
But this light is not for those men, still lost in black all shadow,
Wont you help me to believe that they will see,
A day.. A Brighter day.. 
When all the shadows will fade away
That day I cry that I believe,
Oh my love 
High above us
The sun now embrace us nature
and from nature we should learn 
that all can start again
As the stars must fade away
to give a bright new day.....

Good Bye

When tomorrow comes
We will won't be able to meet each other for some time
But we won't ever forget you
Im just a little scared when we each walk our own path
If only there is someone you care and love by accompanying you by your side
So that's why, no matter how lonely
and how many tear drops on the lonely nights
All you have to do is recall back carefully and you will know that I am still here
Goodbye to you, Good bye
Till our path cross again, on that day
Our good bye's are just temporaray, only temporary
Goodbye to you
We will definitely see each other again
We will always be waiting for you at the start
Until we meet again
The memories we spend together
I will take these memories and continue my journey
And when I have lost my way, I just have to think of your smiling face
All I have to do is just think of you and it will give me the courage to continue moving forward
So that's why, compared to "goodbyes"
What I want to say even more is "thank you"
Other than giving me hope you gave me strength
so Good bye
Until our path cross again
Saying good bye is just temporary.. just temporary

"goodbye" is not a word to say when we depart, but a promise that we will meet again
so that is why.. goodbye.. we will definitely meet again

MNS # ?

time passes by, I find myself falling into deep thoughts..

I tried to take life as it is, being liquid and flowing into shapes of environment,

constantly finding a remedy perhaps a recipe to unlock the deepest mystery known to myself,

it scares me so much that I am actually in control of my life.

there isn't a hand manual to a bountiful meaningful life and amazingly there isn't any available

Numerous people has tried making these manual or handbook to a so called "LIFE" according to their definition and interpretation... but really why follow their footsteps?

Everyone is tailored uniquely.  Everyone has their own aspiration and we humans are made up of a series complex emotions which made us all one of a kind.  So complex that till this very day scientist is still uncovering the mysteries of our brain.  I guess we just have to go with the flow and find our own respective calling and above all have faith in ourselves.  

With this, it brings me back to me another question.  What is your calling?  What is my calling?

having fun is and enjoying life is what I do best.. but in order to make them come true I have to work hard for those paper which we regard to as - money.

Its about time I draft a course of direction.  I am tired of being liquid .. flowing into objects and shapes accordingly.  I have huge dreams.  Its a really expensive dream .. and I intend to make them into reality.  So whats the plan like?  I need an enlightenment .. 

Knowing what you want is easy.  But knowing how to get what you want is a real pain the ass.

 

Note to Share *Embracing Failure

As I was browsing through my mountains of email.  I came upon this inspiring piece of article and decided to share this.  I hope it will motivate you as it did to me.



Embrace Failure

By Jason Holland

When you're a Carefree Entrepreneur, failure is... a good thing.

It seems counterintuitive. But it is actually a key to your success.

You learn from your mistakes. You discover what works and what doesn't when it comes to your marketing approach... products you try to sell... even the niche in which you've put your online business. Based on what you learn, you tweak and make changes.

The foundation of your Carefree Business will be much stronger.

Think of it as the market (all those potential customers out there) telling you what they want. All you have to do is listen.

The great news is that because you're starting an Internet business, this market research is very cheap and it comes fast. Because you're selling digital products, you won't have a warehouse of products that don't sell. And you won't be on the hook for an expensive lease with your online storefront.

In other words, you won't have lost a large investment. And you'll have gained invaluable knowledge.

So don't fear failure. Embrace it.

The Road to Success Is Paved with Accelerated Failures

By Rebecca Matter

Failure. It's a fear many of us in this industry know all too well.

And it's a fear that can get in your way from time to time, especially when you're just starting out.

Failure is actually one of my biggest fears in life.

Yet ironically, when it comes to marketing, it doesn't faze me one bit.

Let me explain...

Early on in my career, I was told that if I wasn't failing, I wasn't marketing enough. The key was to uncover why I failed, and then turn it into an opportunity to learn and become a better marketer.

Well, yesterday I was rereading AWAI's Accelerated Program for Six-Figure Copywriting for a presentation I was giving that night, and I came across a short section called The Theory of Accelerated Failures.

I thought of you right away, so I decided I would share it with you today...

"The road to success is paved with accelerated failures." – Michael Masterson

According to Michael's theory, the way to become truly successful is twofold:

You must be willing to make mistakes.

You need to make most of your mistakes in the beginning of your career, and then immediately correct them.

It goes like this...

Let's say you've just written your first autoresponder series. You've gone through Jay White's Autoresponder Apprentice program, followed his instructions, put a lot of good work into writing the series, and you're pleased with what you've done.

You send it off to the client, feeling proud and full of confidence.

But when you ask the client for the results (and you'd better be doing this!), you find out that it only brought back mediocre results.

What went wrong?!

After the initial disappointment subsides, you sit down and review the entire series more thoroughly. And right then, you see the mistake...

Your copy wasn't really directed towards the reader! You talked way too much about your own experience and never really showed your reader how your experience would help them.

So, what do you do next?

Apply the theory of accelerated failures...

First, you need to realize that you, like everyone else in the world, make mistakes.

Remember, too, that since this was your first autoresponder series, it would be unrealistic to expect gangbuster results.

So, after you've accepted the fact that you made a mistake, you must then address the second half of the theory...

You must correct the mistake immediately.

In this example, you realized you focused far too much on yourself and not enough on the reader. So you go and learn how to better establish intimacy with your reader by practicing several different techniques (tip: if you have the Six-Figure Program, you have all the techniques you need!).

You then practice these techniques again... and again... until you have them down cold.

And then finally, you resolve to remember to never make that mistake again.

See how that works?

You make a mistake. Then you immediately correct it the first time around so it doesn't happen a second time.

When you get to your second assignment, you follow the same process. You correct the mistakes, learn from them, and make sure they don't happen your third time around. And so on.

What this means is that in each effort you make, you'll be making "smarter" and "smarter" mistakes. That's the power that comes from accelerated failures!

When you start looking at failures this way, you start to see them as gifts, and instead of trying to ignore them, will actually seek them out. Failures force you to look in new directions, approach different angles, and continuously learn.

And that's what will make you a stronger and more successful web writer.

Of course, it's actually true outside of the web-writing world, too...

Most extremely successful people reached that status because they weren't afraid to make mistakes... and because they quickly learned from them.

Think about it...

Babe Ruth would never have gotten a home run if he wasn't willing to get struck out first...





Henry Ford would never have created the Model T if he gave up after his first try...





And Walt Disney would never have created Mickey Mouse if he wasn't willing to give animation one more shot after losing everything in a bad business deal...

Perhaps the most noteworthy example is Thomas Edison...

According to historical accounts, Edison failed 10,000 times in his storage battery experiments. When asked about these failures, Edison replied,

"Why, I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work."

Edison went on to win 141 patents for storage batteries as well as 389 for electric light and power, 195 for the phonograph, 150 for the telegraph, and 34 for the telephone.

1,093 patents in all!

How's that for learning from your mistakes?

So, when you sit down to write your next (or first) email, article, home page, etc., think about Thomas Edison.

Remember that true success can come only through failures.

And from this day forward, resolve to never be afraid of making a mistake.

Empowering, right? Now go out there and make some mistakes!

My summer dream

 Our summer is over there
 On the other side of that hill.
 Unchanging things,
 Beautiful things -
 All of them are there.

The sunflowers chase after
The sun's position.
So intently that we can't hear
Even the sound of the wind,

Take your heart and add it to mine.
Fill it with drops of light.
If we firmly link our hands together,
A little miracle will be born.

I want you to believe me.
I can see into the future
When I look into your eyes
And see the blue of the sky
Reflected there.

Oh, I wonder,
In which direction
Will fate go
From here?

Painted in the clouds



Is a white promise.




 Never forget.

- Funimation

cultures unite #2

..  I looked at him in disbelieve and immediately interrogated him why did he do that.  His answer was something unexpected as I was expecting perhaps its related to some personal emotions motive.  It turns out during one of his cycling adventure, the weather took a drastic turn and became bitterly cold.  To keep himself from frostbites, he had no other choice but to burn his book to keep himself warm.  I stared at him in disbelieve thinking really?! Its like another episode of survivors.  I only see this in tele, hear it from the radio, read it from the magazines but to be meeting a person face to face like this has brought the experience to a whole other level.
It acquires someone who has not just physical fitness but extremely strong will power to accomplish such a fit.

It was a wonderful experience to hear their story and approach to life.  

cultures unite

Recently I have been actively involved in international groups, bringing worlds and cultures into a single unity.  Being in a country like Canada which forty percent of its populations are immigrants, it is not surprising that the other person who seats beside you on the bus is from half way across the globe and have reside in Canada and called it home.
Never in my life have I experienced that communication and speaking foreign language, knowing their culture and understanding them was so important.  I guess I took it all for granted being born and raised in a comparatively peaceful nation which prides itself in being multicultural and multiracial living under the same roof.
The group that I recently was active in does not have a name, not yet atleast.  But in my own personal view, I really don't think there should ever be a name to it.  I like it being so informal, being so open to the public and it is welcoming to everyone who does bump into our events.

Just a few days ago, I met a really interesting character.  Note that in life, my group of peers are always around my own age.  But now I have a good mix of different people from all walks of life, bringing a piece of their experience, wisdom and culture onto the table and sharing it.  He is a young japanese guy who is currently in VAN studying linguistic whom inspires to be an English teacher.  His approach to life simply threw me back and when he shares his experience it captivated me into his world.  He was rather tanned with a typical japanese long hair and spoke really good English.  He bike's around the globe.. No its not the one's with the engine in it but powered by his pair of legs.  Biking across Canada through the Rocky's covering thousand and thousand of kilometers alone, meeting new people and very much often being in nature.  He documented everything with a pen and paper but in the end he had not choice but to burn it...... *to be continued

Gomene

Hey there YOU! HI!!  

I must really apologize for my long absence.  I have been busy lately with travelling around Vancouver, going for dinner's, work, meeting new people, getting sick *sniff sniff*, family matters.  Talking about family.  My family is heading for Vancouver inbound!  Yay!  Have been scouting over the mountains, across the lakes and rivers to find a place for them to stay.  I didn't know that searching for a suitable place to rent in Vancouver can be such a pain in a**.    Also my work has just started to get a little busy and now I have to work everyday till August.  So that's less sleep, more work, less play, less time, more money.  

So now that I am in the midst of finalizing the rental agreement and testing out my negotiation skills with the landlord I have a little break in between to blog a little.  I have not forgotten my promise to you dear readers on a new video and am still very much involved in it.  =)  Its NOT easy to make vids with my 2 years old iPhone and my old lappy you know. Perhaps one of you rich readers can sponsor me something better? teehehe.  

Well I hope you guys continue supporting and reading this blog and again I apologize for the inconsistent blogging.  Shhhhh.*** do you hear that?  My bed is whispering my name.  There goes another day, so till next time folks.  Peace out.  

All Time Love

Sometimes you walk by the good ones
'Cos you're trying to hard, too hard to see them
And sometimes you don't find the right lines
'Cos you're trying too hard, too hard to hear them
But you know what it feels like
''Till an all time love
'Cos nothing else is good enough
I want an all time love to find me
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Some days you're too set in your ways
And you forget to shut up, shut up and listen
And some days you just have to misplace all your mistakes
Somewhere that you won't miss them
So stop lying that you're fine

I don't believe that it's a failing
I don't believe that it's a fault
'Cos if everything were plain sailing
Oh tell me what would there be left to exalt

iPhone 5

I must say that Apple did a fantastic job in branding their brand.  With a few phones by HTC and Samsung kicking and dominating iPhone 4 in terms of features, functionality and speed but still Apple phone's are selling like hot cakes.  This truly is a remarkable marketing and brand washing technique by Apple.  Even with the initial launch of iPhone 4 come's with reception problem, I thought that finally there is something to slow the sales for Apple but to my surprised they took the heat very well.  *clap clap.

Well to all of you Apple fans, the rumored iPhone 5 / perhaps 4Gs coming out this year has generated quite a big fuss among the public.  I highly believe that all this rumors that has internationally well known iOS hackers like DevTeam, Geohot and etc tweeting and blogging on Apple.  Creating a sense of mystery and generating interest in the public population is really part of Apple ingenious way of marketing.    



It really will be a wish come true to be working for a company like Apple.  Understanding the way the company ticks somewhat excites me.  Ok, so here for you readers is iPhone5 info graphic rumored list of features.  Indulge yourself in it.  And hey!  In a way I'm helping Apple market their "not yet exist" product for free.  Hire meeee Apple!  =)

http://www.limera1n.cc/2011/06/iphone-5-all-rumored-features.html

Next Video

How did you guys like the previous video?  Forgive me for this is my 2nd time taking and editing a video so that really explains the lack of quality.  Nevertheless, I am still trying my hands on my new found interest- taking motion pictures.
They say a picture speaks a thousand words, but motion picture speaks a million words.  Inspired by youtuber's like WongFu production and various young talented individuals I decided to try my hands on capturing some of my life and share it with you guys.
I've been told a dozen time to includes more pictures and less words in my blog.  So, I'll try doing just that but with a slight tweak... more of video clips.

After completing the 2nd video -The beach.  I felt really good and decided to make another video which I have in mind.  Initially I wanted make a video on my "job hunt" in Vancouver but given that this is a one man show I really do not have the resource to make it happen.  So instead I came up with something equally good.. *excited!  Really I am!

Armed with just my trusty old Iphone 3Gs and my 3 years old Sophie, I'll do my very best to bring stagnant pictures to life for you guys.  Also, I just have to say this again.  All of you readers are really an encouragement for me to continue typing away and doing more videos.  Thank you!  I love reading all your comments and do follow me if you have not.

Drop me a comment on what would YOU like to see in my next video. ooo~ Have I told you guys that I finally found a job as a freelance Marketing Administrator.  *applause~ applause ...
Its a freelance job, so Im still on the hunt for something more stable.   ^^

Stay tune folks..!!

Beach

Scorching sun was burning my back as I was all prep for my beach trip - alone ! It was a lazy Wednesday afternoon where the sun was at its best, I started to regret why have I not have a sun screen lotion in my bag.  The bus came along and as I paid the fare the bus driver stared at me asking where I was going to.  I hesitated for a moment and meekly replied : "errr.. Ain't this bus going to White Pine Beach?" He smiled and hand signaled me to hop on.  To my horror, the bus was totally empty.  Seriously.  Not even a single fly was in it.

Noticing my reaction, the driver told me it has been a quite day for him as well.  Which means there goes my dream of actually seeing chicks sunbathing at the beach.  I sulked and sat down thinking if I even made the right choice of going to beach.  Determined not to let this bring me down, I popped in my headphones and had my favorite playlist on play.  I must admit during the 30 minutes journey I was captivated by the beautiful greenery of Vancouver.  I even spotted a wild deer on the road..

The beach wasn't really the beach I was hoping for.  It was actually an oversized lake with the mountains as a backdrop.  Can't complain't since it was actually somehow unique.  Oh! have I mentioned the water?  It was so beautifully clear.  I swear for a moment I heard it asking me to swim in it which I immediately obliged.  Yeap, I jump right into it.  You know what.. typing doesn't really tell what I experienced so check out the video below. =)

Spring Snown

Right now, after a couple rounds of Carona Extra isn't exactly the best time to blog..  But still, I had a sudden urge to tell you people the exact feelings and thoughts that are going on upstairs.
Tonight on a Spring night, I had a wonderful encounter. snow....  "snow"?!  It is Spring for god sake!  What is snow is doing in Spring?!  Has the gods messed things up so badly that snow came?  Well, believe me Im not crazy.  Neither am I under the influence of alcohol talking gibberish.  ~ errmhmmm .. ok~ I am under the influence of alcohol but hell NO I am talking, I mean typing Gibberish.

Allow me to further elaborate my snow encounter.. as I was walking walking and walking.  The sun shining my back with a blue sky backdrop and a few clouds hanging in the heavens.  I saw this white like snow flakes drifting infront, floating with the wind.  I squint harder determined to know what the hell is that.. As I reach out one of it fell on my hand.  It was a dandelion!  and there are bazillion of them floating around just like snow.  It was beautiful....

Oh.. Did I mentioned that I had been a real stalker lately?  Couldn't help it.  That beauty is beyond words.  So addictive that after a glance I couldn't help but stare.  I find myself falling into space.. into an empty space within time and space.  Where everything stood still and only your beauty shine like a beam from the skies.  What am I referring to?  For me to know and for you to guess folks...

Sings****

OOooooo You You You... come on get your candy'
Don't be afraid of me the candy man
Wow. girl you look familiar, where to I know you from
Have you visit me on facebook dot com?!

I turn the music up, I;ve got the records on
You stole my heart away,
As the sweet sound, what is like?
Lu don't even know me
This is the best part..
Wey shall only be a dream....

oh~~ Written in stars
A Million miles away,
Message to the main
Season come and go,
But i wont never change.. n Im on my weyyy~~~~ ....

Fuck carona...  I had my eyes on you and you are not getting away...
WHO?!!  or perhaps~ WHAT?!!  

I dont even know what the fuck Im typing right now!  Im sure Im going regret what I type tomorrow.  But than again screw tomorrow.  I might be dead tomorrow for all I know.  So let me live the moment.  This time Im not leaving with you. Someday, something about this place.
 There is something about babe you and I...

Running on the Low

Patience is the ability to wait or have a certain tolerance towards a matter?  Often patience is regarded as being tolerance, endurance under difficult circumstances.  Persevering in the face of delay and provocation without succumbing to our wild instinct.  Patience is the level of endurance one's character can take before negativity.

Question to be asked.  When should we be patience and when should we not?  Being a mere mortal acting like a fool waiting and waiting, all in the name of patience.  Is this having faith that things would turn for the better or just another excuse not to leave our beliefs and jump into the unknown.  To a certain point we believed our beliefs, and have faith.  Slowly enveloping ourselves in a world of fantasy known only to exist solely in our thoughts and nothing more.  Is this a way human react to protect themselves from harm and live a life of lies.

Has the days grown so long that when tomorrow comes, only fear awaits.  Is this mere thought out of desperation or just an insane man's outcry begging for an opportunity.  Did the wind blew so hard that I side tracked?  Have I been searching in the wrong place?  or perhaps signs and hints that this is just not meant to be........

-Mnpl

No Need to Say Goodbye

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word
And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry
I'll come back when you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war
Pick a star on the dark horizon and follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget
Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes
You'll come back when they call you
No need to say goodbye
You'll come back when they call you
No need to say goodbye 

Wait, Magic

We don't wait.
no.. we breath, we pulse, we regenerate.  Our heart beats, our mind create.  Our soul ingest.  and this words brings comfort.

When King Lear dies in Act 5.  Do you know what shakespeare has written? He's written "He Dies" No fanfare, no metaphor, no brilliant final words.  The culmination of the most influential work of comedic literature is "he dies".

The simple words "he dies", perhaps an end to a relationship, maybe the time has come for us to leave what we treasure, which simply marks an end to something.
I know it is only natural to feel sad, but not because of those words "he dies".  But because of the life we saw prior to the words.  What I'm trying to imply is that you turn the page, continue reading and let the next story begin.

But the story is meeting its final chapters, but thats ok~ our story that we love must eventually comes to an end, and when they do.  It's only an opportunity for another story to begin.  So the beginning of the end begins with a new chapter.

When you were younger, everyone thought that you were something of a genius perhaps a musical genius and you believed them.  But now, as you became a grown up you wasn't so sure.  Why grown ups didn't believed what they were told when they were a kid, I mean aren't we suppose to be smarter?  What you needed, what WE needed was an opportunity to prove ourrself that we are something more than we believed.  

Whisper

This old room is partitioned by a bunk bed Even the little window is split in two The little desk in my room, like the floor of a valley Even when I look up from my books into only half a window It's always the same, hills, and power lines Only half a sky If you look this way from those hills From that one narrow opening amongst the many ordinary windows on one building amidst the housing You might see me, wishing to take flight...

Spring's night

I boarded the night train after having dinner with my mates in Burnaby, still feeling stuffed from the generous helping of Tempura, Salmon sashimi and loads of sushi.  I really should not have eaten so much but then again who doesn't when it comes to buffet?  Feeling much better with this thought I walked up the stairs to the platform.  I waited for the train to arrive with the cold night wind blowing softly against my face.  With my headphones stuck in my head and playing some jazz and strangers brushing my shoulder as they pass I stared into the night.  The dazzling city lights glows in a distance almost like Christmas tree decoration, pretty indeed.

At a moment like this, you stare at your phone hoping it will ring but it didn't so you would not feel lonely.  I took a deep breath and boarded the train which was nearly empty.  The moon was perfectly round and it wasn't long before I find myself lost in my thoughts and really wishing that I was not alone on this train bound for loneliness.  This is really the time when all sorts of big questions start to surface and I find myself lost not knowing the answer to them.  My heart sank when I know that really it is me here alone with a handful of friends.  The feeling of restriction, emptiness came gushing like a fountain into me and I had to keep it out by focusing on my dreams.

I smiled at the pathetic me.  What is all this nonsense that I am going through?  Well, tonight is a night where I shall let whatever that comes flowing towards me be.  A day has come to an end when I stepped out of the train.  Again I took a deep breath and walked into the night.. with a smile and my music still playing.  

Moving

I may have botched things,
so Im a little frustrated,
But I havent give up yet
Im gonna clear up theses muddled dreams
like a fog lifting, just you watch
Until I move ahead with a step
and then the next
though I may be going slowly
Im still moving forward
at my own pace
Its because I have these tears
that I can take the next steps
I am clearly aware
that I am moving forward
towards the light

The soft glow of the computer screen filled the room and I was seating on the floor thinking of what I should write about.  I guess I'll let you know a little about my current life in Canada *winks.

A month has passed since I left Malaysia for Canada and things are going slow here.  However, that aside I must say I am very much fortunate and lucky.  Being totally new and foreign in this land I was welcome into my friend's family.  I was provided with shelter and food and deep down I do not know how can I ever repay this great debt and gratitude.  It was like I am part of a new warm family and that bring great comfort into my lonely soul.  I am indeed touched by the kindness and hospitality shown towards me, so Thank You so much my dear friend Bernard Liew and Family.  I owe you big time bro.

Canada is a... err Vancouver is really a nice place to be in, really it is.  The weather is just right, the scene is beautiful with loads of greens, snowy mountains and crystal clear rivers.  Not to mention the salmon fishes are in abundance here ~~ and errr of course the almighty grizzly bears. *trembles.  Thank god I am not that lucky to bump into one grey furry wall when hiking the mountain... okok..maybe not mountain, more like hill.  However, I must say I am really looking forward to hike up the mountains soon.
Did I mention that the cars here a cheap too?  To hell with Malaysian taxes on cars! Its absurd! A total pathetic to protect out Proton and Perodua market share.  Me myself I had my eyes on the all new Accord~ but well having an eye and having it actually is different plus I haven't really got my driving license here yet. Bummer.  It seems that I have to re-take the driving test here again (oh no!! I can't bribe the officer here with RM50 to pass *sighs).  The nightmare doesn't ends there, it seems for the 1st year with your new license you are NOT able to drive unless you are accompanied by someone who has a valid driving license!  some great law they have here.. and to make matter worst, on the 2nd year, you are only allowed to drive alone and carry passenger that are directly related to you.  WTF?!   You mean I cant fetch my friends and go party for the 2 years?!  @#%^&* !   Which genius gave this idea and whoever is dumb enough to make this as a law!
Feel my pain?  Sigh~ here isn't really Malaysia where if you break the traffic law everything can be settled with :" Minta maaf bang.  Sorry bang.  Tak ada lain kali ya. " while shaking his hand firmly with a RM100 note in it.

Well, its a new life here folks and I am doing my best to make the most out of it.  Applying to a dozen of companies every single day has somehow became my daily routine. So, wish me luck readers.  I have a dream and I intend to make it a reality...

Cheers to that mate!  *knocks your glass and bottoms up

Comfort

There are people in the world that can know no misery and they take comfort in chirping birds and beautiful stories.  There too are people who know that they are mysteries to be solved and they take comfort in writing down the important evidence.  There are also people who knows that they are always something, something to invent, something to read, something to say and something to do to make a sanctuary no matter how small or insignificant it may seems.  


At times the world can seem an unfriendly and sinister place, but believe me that they are much more good in it than bad.  All you have to do is look hard enough.  And what might seems to be a series of unfortunate events may in fact be the first steps of the journey.


I may not know the door to wisdom and the key to life.  But I know this one thing, that if I look hard enough, that if I have faith and believe so strong that will glow in the depths of winter storm.  Eventually, we will stand on our dreams.

To you

A message to you readers. Ladies, gentlemen, boys and girls.
I acknowledge your existence and do appreciate your contribution to my humble blog.  Really, I started blogging a few years ago solely to have fun but over the years I have came to an understanding that this is no longer just a place for me to have fun, it slowly transformed into a place I share my thoughts, experience to you my fellow readers and a reminder to the future me.

And I have to say that without your keen interest and loyal support I would have never came this far.  So a big THANK Y.O.U!!
Do share with your mates if you find any of the post interesting and worth sharing.  I would be honored.
Till my next post.  Take care

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An enchanted moment

Blinking stepping into the sun

With the sun rolling sky high

It’s the leap of faith

I look all around me

On this path unwinding

Some of us will sway and fall

And yet some sail through the trouble

Somewhere out there,

Relentlessly searching for that precious stone

In that big somewhere out there

Keep your head above the water

Till we find our place of peace...

-Mnpl 

Music - votre vie?

Hey all!  Hows it rolling over at your side of the world?  As some of you would have already know I am no longer in Malaysia, currently residing in Canada, Vancouver  

*sings aloud ~ O Canada, we stand on guard for thee.

God keep our land glorious and free!

Nah!  Regardless where on earth I am, I remained a loyal Malaysian.  I love my country MALAYSIA 

(perhaps not the corruption part eh).  Back to topic, I'm pretty sure all of you listened to music.  Music Votre Vie?  (Music your life?)

I cant help but think back, really wayy back to the day when everyone was merely a defenceless child, when mother and father would sing Lullaby to calm our high pitch cries and before we sleep.  We grew up going to kindergarten learning how to sing DO RE MI and tons of other nursery rhymes.   If we observe the pattern and trend of music we listen you will see that music has been accompanying us throughout our development in lives.  So much so, somehow~  someway ~ music became part of us. 

Now if you would just imagine with me for a moment what if music stop to exist?  The world would be eerily quiet and dull wouldn’t it?  Music is a direct translation of the society we live in now.  Just look at the MTV and music we listen to now, we are heavily influenced by it without knowing.  Being a marketer, I can’t help but observe the power of marketing that resides within music.  Even if the MTV or music does not reflect the current society, it has the power to slowly mould the society towards its direction.  Why you may ask?  Merely because music has the power to soothe, calm, heal or tear you apart both emotionally and physically.  If a single element has the power to make you feel good, it equally has the power to bring you down.  Marketing a certain product or services in music is nothing new of course but I have seen alot of marketing effort failed to make a significant impact on the market take for example Nokia.  However I have to say that one particular brand caught my attention and has been doing really good infusing their product in music across nations – go observe the MTV and you will see it.  Just to give you a slight hint the brand that has a logo with a big “b” on it.  

No matter what music is used for, it is the perfect art and our lives would be very much less complete without it.  Music does not restrict the audience in the way that movies or graphic art does.  The listener can create whatever image she or he wants to.  It is an art that appeals to the conscious mind, but some good music also appeals to the subconscious which makes music possess such influential power.   

Music Votre Vie?  Yeap..

the Rumored Iphone 5!

Apple invented a legendary product -Iphone which took the market by storm.  No doubt it was a revolutionary product and sold millions of unit in the market putting some of its competitor to shame.  Now with a rumored Iphone 5 which is expected to be out in the 3rd quarter of 2011. 

A guy at NoWhereelse has prepared a picture illustration shown below on the rumored Iphone 5.  =)

Well, from what is being illustrated I dont think it is a significant upgrade from the Iphone 4.  I was however expecting Apple to change the exterior design of the new Iphone.  Well, who knows? Perhaps Apple have something in store to WOW us. Only time will tell ... 

>> http://www.nowhereelse.fr/iphone-5-43523/ << Click me to see the Ori size of the image

Be-gone

Stars shining bright above us

We still share the same sky don't we

Stars fading but I linger on there

Dream a little of me

Turning in circles confusion is nothing new 

Flashback of old times

They say good things never last 

I now know its true

Watching through ma window,

The barren trees start to bloom

and the day grew long

Spring marks a new life.. a fresh anew

I smiled like I mean it to let myself go

Played the part of a new character

Said Goodbye to a world I thought I lived in

Love a little, Smile a little, dream of me a little..

8000

I flew past the pacific ocean, heading thousand miles to the east... passing by Shanghai, Japan and hitting Canadian soil with a heavy heart and 50kg of my personal belongings. This is it, this is all I have with me as I walked into the airport. It is with this, I have to strive a better life...

I know my purpose here, I know my plan here, I know my time here, I know what I want here.... I'll get it for sure. I need to.. I have to and there is not a single room to fail right now. I cant, no I cant.

Rest assured, I have everything frozen in memories and there will come a day when I shall be back again. Stronger, better I pray.

So, I am going all out now. This is the time.
8000 miles I left for a new start, 8000 miles I will travel back for my old friends.

With this I leave you readers a quote that inspired me.. erm~rather long quote ^^

"Defeat may test you; it need not stop you.
If at first you don't success, try another way.
For every obstacle there is a solution

Nothing in the world
can take the place of persistence.

The greatest mistake is giving up
Wishing will not bring success
But planning, persistence and burning desire will"

Song for a Friend

Well you're magic he said
But don't let it all go to your head
Well I bet if you all had it all figured out
Then you'd never get out of bed .. No doubt
All the thing's that I've read what you wrote me
Is now sounding like the man I was hoping
Keep on keeping it real
Cause it keeps getting easier indeed
He's the reason that I'm laughing
Even if there's no one else
He said, you've got to love yourself
Climb up over the top.
Survey the state of the soul.
You've got to find out for yourself whether or not you're truly trying.
Why not give it a shot?
Shake it. Take control and inevitably wind up
Find out for yourself all the strengths you have inside of you.

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight


And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

- Chris Medina, What are words

D-day

Tick tock tick tock tick tock... the needles of the clock never once stop for a second. Time goes by regardless, and I have been quitely, sadly counting down to this day. With each passing day for the past few months my heart grew heavier, and now I stand at the traffic light staring at the "yellow" glow picking up my luggage and ready to go.

As I picked up the final luggage, my heart.. I didn't know that over the months it has grew so heavy that I can barely lift it up. I looked sadly at it knowing that it has grew fond of this place, the food here, the people here. It kept reminding me this is the place I grew up, this are the people that showed you kindness, and this are the food you ate your whole life and these are the memories that will you not forget until you lay 6 feet under.

I wonder to myself again if what I am about to do is sound. My brain has been calculating and thinking this question over and over again and if I rule out all my emotion, it is a logical move. But who am I without emotion? Who am I without feelings? I will not even be human..

A decision has been made, and all preparations has been made a few months prior to this date. I can never say how much I will miss my friends and family here. Everytime I bid farewell a little of me inside died, which makes me comes to a conclusion that I WILL be back again. Take this as a moment of adventure where I go all out to achieve my dreams and will be back again to tell the tale.

But above all, I hope that I will continue to have all your support.. especially the support from YOU. I pray every single day that you will be safe and sound.

Beyond words can describe, beyond expression could tell. Read my heart... "you" know me well enough. Afterall you have been with me most of the time in my life.

Reason

i'm not a perfect person. there are many things i wish i didnt do
but i continue learning. i never meant to do those things to you.
and so i have to say before i go, that i just want you to know

i've found a reason for me, to change who i used to be
a reason to start over new, and the reason is you

i'm sorry that i hurt, its something i must live with everyday
and all the pain i put you through, i wish that i could take it all away
and be the one who catches all your tears, thats why i need you to hear

Drunkard

As I always call it, alcohol to me is a happy potion. It has the ability to make you all time high and happy for a moment. But I fail to see that it serve as a double edge sword, it actually enhances your emotion of that particular moment. Most of the time when consuming "happy potion" I was either in a happy or party mood resulting me babbling like a fool and laughing or happily dancing off to the music.
Well, what if you consume alcohol when your feeling down and out? I can tell you, your in for a ride. Alcohol to you seem like water, and even if you know you have enough there is a sudden urge you want to reach out for that 2nd shot on the table, just to immerse yourself in that few seconds. But what comes after that few seconds is what I call the "washing machine" effect. Your head will start spinning together with your stomach, and before you know it you are at a corner throwing up until your stomach is dead empty. All of a sudden you feel overwhelmed with a gush of sadness and loneliness. You lie on the bed, shivering from the cold. Your stomach growling and hurting from the gastric juice that continues to grind the stomach walls. Leaving you feeling doubly sad....

So drink when your happy and not sad.

BeiJing

After a series of late night hanging out with my mates I was determined to actually sleep early for a change. You know, just rest the body mind and soul for a little. But every single night, there bounds to be a program or my friends will be calling me out for a yum-cha session. Just last night, I met up with a dear old friend who came back from Australia with a few other wonderful new friends. At the back of my mind I know that I have to head for the airport at 4am the next day but well, that didnt really stop me from hanging out with them.

I got back home at 1am and headed straight for the bed only to be woken up moments later. I dragged myself to get dressed and headed straight for the door. Upon reaching LCCT, I was rather shock to see the amount of people already there in the wee hours of the morning rushing for their flights. Well, it was my first time in LCCT and I was like a wondering lost soul there asking people for directions. Thank god, I manage to navigate myself without trouble to the gate and board the plane inbound for TianJin, China.

First thing I got out after a 5 hours ordeal in a bloody cramp AirAsiaX seat was the cold cold wind blowing me as they are welcoming to China. It was -6 when I touch down and its sooo soo cold! I couldnt even feel my face after exposing a good 5 minutes outdoor. I boarded the bus and after another 2 hours I manage to get my ass to the BEIJING! yay!! The jam was massive! I meant it! Here I was thinking that where can we get better drivers than Malaysians but you should see the way this CHinese drives! I was like WTF the whole entire journey. Im not joking! Drivers were making a U-turn from the outer lane into the inner lane all the way to the oncoming traffic! People were reversing on the highway even its a one way street with cars behind! My eyes were popping out and all of a sudden I feel very insecure in the car. The drivers were bumper to bumper, and the distance between the car im in and the one beside me was like just a few inches. Hardly enough space for me to even open the door and get out. It was a massive sandwhich.

I am suprised I reached my destination without actually having an accident. I am already starving like a zombie ready to go on a human flesh fest. (had not eaten for 24 hours!!) Thank god 2 wonderful friends brought me to eat some bloody awesome korean food!! everything was delicious~ maybe I was bloody hungry.

Another thing unique in CHina is the ability to spit. This chinese really can spit. They spit as if they own the whole road and if you were some sort of invinsible being. I was horrified by their actions and to make it worst the cold weather is not helping at all, within minutes the spit froze to solid ice and as you walk down the road you can see loads of frozen spots here and there. Disgusting!

Its getting late now, so Im heading for the bed. Will let you readers know more about my experience soon k? Till then~ Peace out

Searching

Stranded here in the midst of clouds
Cant see anything beyond my hands
I need a hideout,
To rest my wounded body and soul

No where to turn to,
No running from it,
No one to rely,
No place to call home

In this dire state,
My head feels like a hammer pounding on it
Digging my way out
Fingers bleeding and nails filled with dirt

Done looking for the critics
Cause they're everywhere
They don't like my style
They don't get my character

Exchange ourselves
And we do it all the time
Why do we do that?
Why do I do that?

I will come out triumphant
So what if Im down in the ditches
I know I have the world against me
But I have my friends behind me =))
Come on and climb out

An End marks A Beginning

Another day and another dawn
2010 behind and 2011 before us,
Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday
Let the past stay in the past
We will walk together forward
Journey here is coming to and end
Only to know another has just begun
What tomorrow brings remains a mystery
But this I promise you I'll face it the best I can