Chooo Choo

Your waiting for a train. A train that will take you far away.
You cant be sure where it will take you, but it doesn't matter anymore
Seating on the platform, holding a bottle of scotch in hand
You find yourself alone on the train with no one you know
Have you put in your all? because sometimes your all is simply not enough
The platform slowly disappear into the smokes along with my smiles
That seed I planted needs nurturing and care to bloom
Unfortunately, I see it dying
Had you tried harder had you stop making excuses
Things might end very differently, happy ending perhaps is gone forevermore
You See, there's this place in me where your fingerprints still rest, your kisses still linger, and your whispers softly echo.
It's the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me.
Like a photo frame hanging on the wall
Rainbow crayons lying on the floor
Color your gray scale life, things never will be the same.
With every goodbye we learn, don't we?
So, goodbye

Confusion

Your hot and your cold,
Is it your work or is it me?
I will be standing on the sidelines,
Together with the cheering team

Are you in a war?
Mentally and emotionally stressed
Hurt and wounded
Praying for the medic`s to be there.

Feeling the numb from the night
Intoxicated a little too much
Don't even remember what flew out
But I know I have to stand back

One thing recalled, thank you for not ignoring
It calmed the tidal waves that was brewing
Grey spots you shall not stand
Just open your mind and spill everything onto the sand

Let the moment be sober
I`ll take it and make a wonder
So come and be honest
Im running out of time and I wont make a blunder

Memoirs

Untuk selama-lamanya, kaulah kenangan terindahku.


Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang tlah hilang darimu
Yang mampu menyanjungku

Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
Selama itu pun
Aku mampu tuk mengenangmu

Darimu, kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku, kau lah cinta sejati

Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang telah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

-kenangan terindah - samsons

soft dreams

What if the play never stop?
Will it be better?

Ignorance is Bliss I was once told
Tip tap down the aisle
Knock knock on the door
It never open

Turn around rejected
Sunset with the rain
Knock knock on the door
Once again it never open

Autumn came, along with winter
Cold and hungry
I yearn for the day when the angel smile
Shining on to me.


For that day, Choirs will sing
Bells will ring
Walking on clouds
to a place with new wonders I'm heading

Happy Ending?

"Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love"

-Happy Ending, Mika

Ranting

Dark clouds filled the sky
Sun is shying for today
It poured like a fountain
Like the one in the hole in my heart

The rain has finally came to a halt,
Revealing the great blue sky
I wonder why its still raining within me
Where art thou clear blue sky?

I walked along a path
some of my friends start to judge
Am I wrong to choose
Should I have just continue the play

What you see is just apparent
Do you even care to go in depth my so called friend?
you`ll know this someday
When your on the brink with nothing left

so please...
Understand n don't judge easily
Give me a smile from within
I`ll absorb it and show u mine =)

One last Cry

It will come a day,
I`ll seat on that bench alone,
When the sun will not shine
Feel heaven`s cry
Pouring on me, pushing to move on

My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are scattered on the floor
I give my best to you
Wishing all my feelings are gone

But just let me have one last cry
Before I leave them all behind
I got to put this out of mind
I know I have to be strong

But gimme this one last cry
One last cry for memories sake
Nothing I can do
I guess we could never had agree

One last cry
Im going to dry my eyes
I had all my luggages
Because Im down to my one last cry

-Mnpl,2010

Shhh... can you hear the sounds of violin?
Shhh... can you hear me humming the melody?
Shhh... my heart is thumping
Shhh... see with your ears wont you?
Come close, and feel my warmth
I`ll glow in the dark
Hold on tight, it wont be easy

Tired.. worn out.. politics everywhere
I will be back strong,
Heading right for you,


"I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kind of boring
Need something that i can confess

Till all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw me wink, no, I've been on the brink, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that'll like those ears
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time
Don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm Gonna give all my secrets away

My God, amazing how we got this far
It's like were chasing all those stars
Who's driving shiny big black cars

And everyday I see the news
All the problems we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album

Got no reason
Got no shame
Got no family
I can`t blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'mma tell you everything"
-Secret , OneRepublic

21 Guns

"Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One 21 guns
Lay down your arms give up the fight
One 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky you and i

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One 21 guns
Lay down your arms give up the fight
One 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky you and i

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One 21 guns
Lay down your arms give up the fight
One 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky"

- 21 guns, Green Day

Reflect

I look at you as you look back at me
I see sorrow in the depth of your heart
You hid it well have you not?
Showing it to the close

Your so weak, cant even stand on your feet
I look sadly into your eyes trying to help
How Can I? Its a journey only for you
No one else can help

But wait, there are expectations to be met
Faith, trust on your shoulders
A burden it might seem,
But this are the things that will keep you going

Shall the sun shine again tomorrow
We don't really know
How often have you took take things for granted
Take few steps back and you`ll treasure more

No doubt it will hurt,
No soon will you recover,
No one can help you
Me, You, Us... shall we?

Saturday Afternoon

I woke up to an empty house, stared at the clock wondering what time it is. Well its 12pm and I have slept for a wonderful 9 hours, I am re-energized. Turn on the tele and did some channel surfing before offing it. Perhaps some music will help? Jazz it is, on a wonderful Saturday afternoon. Head over to the kitchen to get a small bowl of porridge, thats my branch. Set down on my chair, eating slowly while the beautiful jazz plays in the background. It was peaceful... the sun is feeling shy today and the weather seems just right. Looked around and the house was pretty clean to me.

Went over to the hall and played with Sophie (my laptop which im using to type this now). She has been so faithful over the years. Love you Sophie!

Well, on such a beautiful day I wonder what is everyone doing? How is she getting along now? It must be pretty tiring to work everyday but ain't it fun over there in a different state? A shame you didn't have your Passport or you could have went over to Singapore. Well I would love to go Singapore soon....

I feel my mind slowly wondering into the future, well I`m pretty bored sulking about my future already so let it be let it be. I will find a way to adapt, thats my specialty. The real question is how soon and how well? This I wonder... I pray to God that if that day may come will it beautiful and guide me through.

Again I slowly look around my empty house, after all I spend more than 14 years here. It was filled with memories... my childhood memories. Looking into the mirror, how have I grown. What have I done in the past few years? Well Im in a real big mess now, ... STOP! lets not go there. Its a Saturday afternoon, let it be relaxing.

Shall I go to the beach? Shall we go to the mountains? Not to far from civilization, I need company - a friend perhaps.
I wonder, how magical it is that every individual is at different place at this moment. Constantly moving around...It amazed me that each person has a destination to go. An appointment to meet, a date to see.. I wonder again those individuals in different part of the world. What are you doing now? Why are you doing what your doing? I feel that we are connected. The air I breath isn't it connected to you? I raise my hand in front of me. Feel the air and wind, doesn't this air and wind connects to you who is reading this now? Feel the little energy in the air being carried around. Take a moment off, and just relax your body mind and soul. Soft musics will help but not sink into depression. But into a state of relaxation. Close your eyes and concentrate on your surrounding. Open your eyes and look at mother nature and feel the connection between everyone. Think of everyone as equal, your managers, your bosses, your superiors, etc. Ain't they human too? Does someone with millions of asset mean anything? Why be intimated by them when we are born in the same form? All they have is extra papers with some person head printed onto it. Im not saying money is bad. Im saying everyone is equal here now.. Why let your life be controlled by this individuals?

This Saturday afternoon .. ahhhhhh.... beautiful.... marvelous....

Note to God

Dear heavenly father,

The world has become so complicated father, so cruel and evil..
Evil roams the streets freely infecting human like bacteria,
I pray, could you please take all evil away?
My friends are suffering from it...

I tried to help, but Im being pushed away.
Again and again father,
Bring this wall of Babylon down,
For I am truly exhausted

Through you all things are possible.
Show me and use me, so may it through me they will see
I`m merely a shell for your great doings,
Let it be beautiful

Evil has consume too much to see the light
But even in the darkest moment,
When all hope seems gone
A stray of light will shine to guide

Father, I remember you telling me
You will never give us challenges that we cant handle
Everything happens for a reason
So that one day - we are ready

So dear father, let them see, let them realize
That you are constantly watching
Ye thought evil against me; but God meant it unto good