Malaysia.. Merdeka?

Every year of my life on the 31st August I was reminded again and again by my beloved Malaysia has achieved independence. The sacrifices once made by thousands and thousands of individual with their lives to make this a reality, I respect that. Looking back, we have came quite a long way so it seems. I stand proud being a Malaysia, NO really. Coming from a country with a diverse culture and race uniting and leaving in a single community. Not too long ago, the government of Malaysia came up with a slogan "1 Malaysia" conveying the message ... hmm what does it convey again? I wonder.
Well lets see what Dr Mahathir has to say - "I have spoken to Malays and Chinese and they have totally different opinions which cannot be reconciled ... they seem to have their own interpretations. As such, the government must explain to the people the actual meaning of the 1Malaysia concept and make its stand on the matter" <- NST Aug 3rd, 2010.

So there you have it! No wonder I have no idea what 1 Malaysia really means. Ever since I was young I often hear the out cry with all the special privileges catered to only the Bumiputra`s. So much so that I have accepted that this is just a part of my life. I have seen countless speeches by individuals voicing their opinion on this discrimination, just youtube it and Im pretty sure you`ll be entertained for hours. But has the voices been really heard?
Even with this, I came to love the country I grow up in. I am very much a Malaysian just like you sharing this land with all Bumiputra`s, we share the same sky, share the same food, share the same school, share the same bus, share the same workplace and yet why is there still such a huge gap between us?

I stumbled upon a write up which I find rather disturbing
http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=432073840741&id=586500176
, I just don't understand why is there some people out there who are still so racist, and Im surprised its the young lads who actually did this. Just imagine the chain reaction of this stupid actions causing public discomfort, fear of their own safety of being struck down by another fellow Malaysian. Have we not learn from the May 13 incident that resulted hundreds of lives lost and mayhem throughout the country?

"The eruption of violence on May 13 was the result of an interplay of forces... These include a generation gap and differences in interpretation of the constitutional structure by the different races in the country...; the incitement, intemperate statements and provocative behaviours of certain racialist party members and supporters during the recent General Election; the part played by the Malayan Communist Party (MCP) and secret societies in inciting racial feelings and suspicion; and the anxious, and later desperate, mood of the Malays with a background of Sino-Malay distrust, and recently, just after the General Elections, as a result of racial insults and threat to their future survival in their own country' ”

— Extract from The May 13 Tragedy, a report by the National Operations Council, October 1969

Lets just hope Malaysia will turn for the better soon =)

I'm not very sane

Childish! Judged?! You don't even know me!
So deep it hit me, is it merely an act of desperation?
Questions came, started to question my actions
I see my motionless body beside me.
Very much fighting to be alive

They care less as long there is someone to bleed
I am so afraid to walk this road
Where art thou my leaning pole
Angels of happiness do you exist
Proof to me that you are real
Come reside within me because they will never know
They will never know what comes before happiness
Fading away just like the Autumn leaves

I was questioned countless times,
Binded to a paperless contract,
Where is my heart?
Is there anything to change that art...
I'm almost reaching the brim

Angel's come and ignite the fire that once burn so brightly in the dark
The history - I smiled
The future - I cried
I yearn for you unknown person

Catalyst

The Catalyst

Good Evening peeps. I trust most of you have plans tonight - its Saturday night! Perhaps you might be heading on for a wonderful dinner with friends and family, or perhaps taking this weekend opportunity to retreat to your favorite countryside hideout away form the bustling buses and heavy traffic, or you just finished working heading to a nearby bar to chill. Its amazing to see each individual having their own plans and can be at different places geographically but there is still a constant connection with others. This might not make sense but it really amuses me knowing that I am typing this and you at this very moment can be catching a movie or playing sports or even up in the mountains far away and somehow we are connected. A very special connection that generates a sense of wonder. Wondering what are you doing now? Wondering if what we are all doing now will shape the future? Perhaps in the next few seconds to come, or the next few hours, days, weeks, months or even years and centuries to come. In response it than creates a series of emotion - curiosity and even a sense of missing someone.
I came to a thought, thinking we have our time and all of us have the same equal amount of time. Given the same amount of time we can do whatever we want to do with it which will eventually in a way contribute to what will happen next and this very reaction will generate another series of actions. So what I am doing right now which is wondering what I am doing now will actually in a way change what will happen in the next few minutes and the change that will take place in the next few minutes will create a whole series of actions and perhaps even affect others. Do you follow? Well anyway its just a deep thought I am having right now.

By the way there is one song I would like to share with you people. A wonderful song and the melody is really catchy~
Well have a great weekend everyone and stay safe! People who are planning to party hard. PARTY hard!! but don't ever drive drunk after that, make sure you sober up. Police are everywhere =) Peace out ~


Linkin Park - The Catalyst
God bless us everyone
We're a broken people living under a loaded gun
And it can't be outfought
It can't be outdone
It can't be outmatched
It can't be outrun
No

God bless us everyone
We're a broken people living under a loaded gun
And it can't be outfought
It can't be outdone
It can't be outmatched
It can't be outrun
No

And when I close my eyes tonight
To symphonies of blinding light
(God bless everyone
We're a broken people living under a loaded gun)
Like memories in cold decay
Transmissions echoing away
Far from the world of you and I
Where oceans bleed into the sky

God save us everyone
Will we burn inside the fires of a thousand suns
For the sins of our hands
The sins of our tongue
The sins of our fathers
The sins of our young
No

God save us everyone
Will we burn inside the fires of a thousand suns
For the sins of our hands
The sins of our tongue
The sins of our fathers
The sins of our young
No

And when I close my eyes tonight
To symphonies of blinding light
(God save us everyone
Will be burn inside the fires of a thousand suns)
Like memories in cold decay
Transmissions echoing away
Far from the world of you and I
Where oceans bleed into the sky

Like memories in cold decay
Transmissions echoing away
Far from the world of you and I
Where oceans bleed into the sky

Lift me up
Let me go
16x

God bless us everyone
We're a broken people living under a loaded gun
And it can't be outfought
It can't be outdone
It can't be outmatched
It can't be outrun
No

God bless us everyone
We're a broken people living under a loaded gun
And it can't be outfought
It can't be outdone
It can't be outmatched
It can't be outrun

Keep walking

Raindrops falls as the old bird cries
Hey, remember me
I remember you walking away..
In between your transition

So many nights,
I stared at the ceiling
Wondering what made what it is today
How did I come here

Wondering aimlessly in the forest
Its eerily quite
Is there anyone.. walking with me?
My mate, care to share that compass?

Gimme an excuse to stay
Its so hard to take courage
In a world where you can loose touch with people
So.. show me a rainbow here now

*smiles

Be Happy
Show Up, Follow your heart
Find a new Perspective
Have a sense of wonder..
Find ppl you love.
Set goals, Help others and dance
Pamper yourself
Face your fears
Go to a museum
Exercise
Limit Television
Get in touch with mother nature
Lighten up and get a good night's sleep
Read book and get yourself flowers
Don't compare yourself and beat yourself up
Be open to new ideas
Don't focus on negative thoughts... instead focus on creating your desires
Make time just to have fun
Keep the romance in your life
Make a gratitude list
Love your mother earth
Want what you have
and ... be true to yourself

Sing with me

getting drunk is our priority
teasing all of you is my goal
recording everything down is my mission
everyone being happy together is my vision
bonding together is happiness
.. krekrekre.. Oh yea.. check out this new lovely song by Wong Li Hom(王力宏)


王力宏 - 你不知道的事

蝴蝶眨几次眼睛 才学会飞行
夜空洒满了星星 但几颗会落地
我飞行 但你坠落之际
很靠近 还听见呼吸
对不起 我却没捉紧你
你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨
碎了满地 在心里清晰
你不知道我为什么狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是 你不知道的事
蝴蝶眨几次眼睛 才学会飞行
夜空洒满了星星 但几颗会落地
我飞行 但你坠落之际
很靠近 还听见呼吸
对不起 我却没捉紧你
你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨
碎了满地 在心里清晰
你不知道我为什么狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是 你不知道的事
我飞行 但你坠落之际
你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨
碎了满地 在心里清晰
你不知道我为什么狠下心
多的是 你不知道的事
盘旋在你看不见的高空里

flashback

Its That time of year again. Where muslim all around the world fast and pray also known as the holy month. Puasa~ Brought up from a multicultural environment I looovveee the month of fasting, because during "buka puasa" (when the muslims break fast <- YES! 2 words!) the muslims will have this bazaar thing along the roadside. Its such a huge event where not only muslims go there to get their food in preparation to break fast. But non-muslim like me are eager to be there to join in the crowd. Buying delicious food at a cheap price! muahahaha! Feeding myself like a pig. Last year this time I was still in the Uk and missed out the fun, so this year... bazaar and muslims out there. Im officially issuing all of you a warning. I will be terrorizing the food stalls with no mercy, and it will be twice as great cause I missed out last years =D.

Well, not only the fasting season is here but the ghost festival is here. Well I was never a believer on this kind of things but I learn to respect all religion and their practices. Its really interesting to see people burning offerings for their "brothers" by the road, and build this massive colorful castle the size of 4-5 cars stacked together and later on burn them. Stages are setup and performance will be performed to the spirits which the chinese believes will be watching.

Coincidentally, the mooncake festival is just around the corner. Yet another chinese festival where we eat mooncake and play with lanterns. Its the time where shops are decorated and filled with lanterns with all type of design imaginable! I mean seriously! We have the shape of traditional lantern all the way to Pokemon characters like my all time favorite Pikachu and Ultraman. Boy oh boy~ I remember when I was a young kid I would be dragging my mum into the shops staring on the ceiling which are hanged with lanterns and begging my mum to get me one of those really cool lanterns. oh yeah! not to forget about mooncakes!! One of my favorite food! I love the lotus flavored mooncake without the eggyolk in the middle of course. It absolutely perfect.

arh~ during the past few years I have been enjoying this festive season in Malaysia with friends and family. A special someone will never fail to use her cooking skills and impress me. Fortunate me~ Every year I would look forward to this festive season to taste her wonderful bakery skills which I really admire. This very year and also for the years to come, things will just not be the same again.
Festive season will just not be the same for me...

Woah! Hold your horses mate! Not going to that part of my life now... Im taking things at it is. Sei Guai Lou! Bring it on! Give me your best shot! *punches in the air and doing shadow boxing. Noticed my blog has taken quite a change eh? From riddles and short sentences back to the essay style. *yawnz.. Oh WAIT! Wishing everyone Selamat Berpuasa, Happy Mooncake Festival and Stay safe!

Im signing off~
Peace out mates*

O Dear Toiletries

If you walked into a pharmacy (Watson, Guardian)5 years ago and you walk into a pharmacy today you will notice a huge difference in the toiletries section. Oh have you noticed it? Out of no where, emerged a huge array of "For Him" toiletries which 5 years ago "For Her" toiletries dominated the shelf~ Well not so true now isn't it?

Have to admit that most of my toiletries were purchased by my mum (toothbrush, toothpaste, shampoo, facial wash, etc), but since I am working now.. I decided to get my own toiletries instead. Lo and Behold, I was greeted by a whole new wide range of products. I acted calm and cool while quickly browsing through the, wait! let me count 5,10,20,30 or so different kinds of facial wash! I was stunned for a moment and didn't know how or what to choose. There was Garnier, Loreal, UrbanMan, Nivea and bla bla bla. Each brand sub divided into more varieties! @_@ Im dizzy~~
Now if you know me really well and have been shopping with me, you`ll find me a real pain in the ass because I cant bloody choose between such identical products and there is soooo many of them! I remembered dragging a few friends to get my CNY clothes and boy I spend 2 hours in the outlet and couldn't make up my mind on which clothes to buy, my mates were cursing and cursing and even recorded the damn thing down. Well if your hoping for me to upload the video, you can put it to a rest because there is just no way it will be online~
Back to the story~ so there I was. Standing on the aisle staring at the products and they just stared back. Have I told you that there are facial whitening and even some rolls to reduce eye bag for men now? Woah! I am impressed!
After spending a good whole 30 minutes staring at the products, I know this is going no where! Hence, I decided to take things in a more strategical way. I chose a single facial wash product from every single brand and went - EEnie Miny Minie Moh, Quickly choose a product or get em all. Bravo! I grabbed my choice and quickly squeezed my way to the counter and slammed it on the table with a beaming face. There! That was not too bad at all, ain't it? =) Kudos to me for doing a great job!

White as the snow, White is my wine

Ahhh .. after a whole day in the office facing managers and colleague. You retire back to your cozy cove, a nice warm long bath and you smell really nice with the scent of shampoo still lingering every time you stroke your hair.
I ran my fingers along my dear Sophie, I missed her shiny soft skin. She shined brightly in the dark and I can see from her eyes she missed me dearly too. =) She sang some soft beautiful songs to me while I walked to the fridge and helped myself to a bottle of Sauvignon Blanc from Marlborough.
The aroma of the wine fills the air, and I give it a quick swirl held it close to my nose and almost immediately the aroma hit me like a speeding truck. It was absolutely beautiful, I took a little sip and held it in my tongue and I can feel the magic working in my mouth. The mineral taste of the grapes just explodes. ahh Yes! I can feel the strawberry taste in my mouth, its a fruity wine with a long finish. The way I like my wines.
I felt like blogging, so here I am with my beloved Sophie accompanying me, awww how sweet of her. With a glass of lovely wine, soft music, I ran my fingers on dear Sophie and she seems to love it. =)
Time just walked past me and I sipped my last mouthful of wine.. How I wish I had more. Thank you father mother for stealing my wine away from me. My dad`s really old school thinking Im addicted to alcohol. How is that possible? Well Im not going let me ruin my lovely evening...
I ran out of wine, so I guess I will just stop typing and head to my bed. lovely lovely bed. Tomorrow is a Friday, perhaps I will need all my energy for tomorrow. *winks
I had fun with Sophie and of course, right now in my head there a few person I am thinking of. My dear beloved friends, I wish some of you were here right now with me sipping wine. Well .... tonight is definitely a wonderful night. Good night my fellow readers. Cheerio~~

August Blues

I cant believe it! Its bloody August already. Looking back I have been back in Malaysia for 9 months and has been working for 8 months! Over the months I got to learn a few important lessons, fell down a couple of times but never fail to get back up and hopefully matured a little. Life is like heaven and hell a mixture of both, its like pure dark chocolate. In the depth of bitterness you`ll find a little sweetness and its because of the bitterness that we taste it compliments the sweetness very well. Ain't it very much like life? We go through downs in our journey yearning for some sweetness and its because of the endurance, patience, hardship that makes success even sweeter? Life's not fair? I know! =) But than again if you think, what makes you think life is suppose to be fair? Whoever told you that everyone will be treated equally and given the same opportunity? It is only the tiny humans on planet earth who dictate preach about fairness trying to make the world a better place by promoting "fairness". In sports we often see judges and linesman playing the game by the rules. Why? because it ensure fairness in a competition. So at a very young age the word "fairness" has been infused in our mind. Thinking life is just like sports, everyone is suppose to live by the rule, given equal opportunity and compete fairly. But really does this philosophy applies in life? Is there a commandment by our heavenly father in heaven saying that Life is suppose to be fair? In reality it doesn't exist.. Each of us individuals are created unique and not one of us are the exact same, but all of us are created for a purpose. It is for that very one purpose God throw challenges at us, so that we may learn from our downfalls and appreciate life better.

Gosh, I am going to stop right there or this will turn into a Sunday sermon. =P Yea, I made a couple of important decisions for the past few months and its putting me to wonder if I made the right decision. Well a decision has to made and since I made it I guess only time will tell.
Taking a peep at the future, I think 2011 is going to be pretty lonely and dull. Perhaps its a blessing in disguise! =) Perhaps I predicted it wrong .. fingers crossed and on kneeling knees. Cheerio~ I have a feeling I`ll be seeing you here back at my blog pretty soon. *winks.. to you who is reading now on the other side of the screen. Take good care and I`ll be seeing you around pretty soon. =)