Optimum Part 1

Looking back, it has been really some time since I updated my blog. Sometime I just dont have the patient and mood to blog, my bad. I`ll see to it that I frequently update my blog. Well, life has been really a stand still so far. I have been frequently looking for jobs and have narrowed down to a company - Optimum Consultancy.

Allow me to elaborate on my experience with the company. I first heard of the company through a referral by my Uni lecturer, Martin Mynn. It seems that according to him, Optimum has some connections or collaborations with the University. Well~ thats not important. Back to the story.. I sent my CV to Martin for him to forward to the company and he arranged an interview session for me with the company in Cheltenham. My first interview with Optimum Consultancy was with Mr John. He was a really friendly person and the interview went well. I learned that I would not be based in Cheltenham instead a place called Haywards Heath in Sussex. The company has 2 branches which is in Cheltenham and Haywards Heath. The HQ is located in London.
Of course I would hope that my job will be based in Cheltenham. After all my friends are all here, it would be really sad to leave them, but I have to put my priority right.

Now, you might wonder why my interview was in Cheltenham while I am suppose to be based in Haywards Heath. To be frank.. I dont even know. But Mr.John said that he would forward my CV to the branch in Sussex and promised to get back to me within 3 days. I got impatient on the 5th day and called the Mr John regarding my application progress and he said that the manager in Haywards Heath was really busy and promised yet again to call me upon obtaining information. 2 days pass and I still have not heard from him. Feeling really disturbed and unrest I called and yet again has been told to wait. I was feeling really depressed and decided to take matter into my own hands...

I went to Mr. Google for help and asked him for some information regarding the company and manage to get hold of the contact number for Optimum Consultacy (Haywards Heath branch). I immediately called the company thinking if your not coming to me i`ll freaking come to you then!! I guess the manager of that branch was kinda shocked when he received this unexpected call from me. I tried to make my conversation as formal as possible maintaining calm and trying not to sound desperate in getting the job (which I am desperate) and getting an answer from him whether does he want to hire me or not. Well, it went well and he asked me to come over to Haywards Heath for a 2nd interview and he would want me to look around the place and working environment because i`ll be relocating there.. to be continued

Coming up next - find out how I rejected the interview 2 hours before due time and the disastrous journey I encounter

Dilemma of My LIFE

For every action taken will generate an equal opposing reaction. I asked myself why does god give me such harsh decisions to make in my life. I find myself going no where with this questions and Im really depressed about it. Such life changing decision falls down to me and I dont think I am capable of handling such pressure..

Finishing my studies I want to get a full time job in the UK to gain some work experience and mainly to clear my study loans before heading back to Malaysia. Only GOD knows the pain im going through not being able to go back so soon. On top of that, the pain was not alone for me to bear. My dear girlfriend in Malaysia is going through a roller coaster experience in life thus testing our relationship to the limit. Not knowing when i`ll be going back to her side breaks my heart. Countless time we have argued over this matter, countless time tears roled down her cheek, countless time I felt so lost, countless time I have acted calm but in fact im not. Giving her the support needed to stay strong I have to be strong

I was once reminded by my parents that in order to obtain permanent resident in Canada I would have to stay in Canada for 2 years out of 5 years. I never wanted to be PR in Canada, I never wanted to migrate, I never wanted to leave Malaysia, I never asked for this. Staying in the UK has used up 1 year, leaving me with a remaining 4 years time period in which I have to stay 2 years in Canada. My heart is divided into two. I was contemplating whether to continue job hunting in UK and then proceed back to Malaysia forgoing my PR status in Canada or should I go to Canada now and get a job fulfilling my 2 years stay. I dearly missed Malaysia so much it hurts to even think about it...

I do not want to go through such harsh decisions.. I do not want to leave my girlfriend back in Malaysia going through a really hard time with me, its not fair for her.. I do not want to dissapoint my parents my forgoing my PR status in Canada.. Im in a Dilemma. A Dilemma that haunts me over and over again making me weaker each time