Whisper

This old room is partitioned by a bunk bed Even the little window is split in two The little desk in my room, like the floor of a valley Even when I look up from my books into only half a window It's always the same, hills, and power lines Only half a sky If you look this way from those hills From that one narrow opening amongst the many ordinary windows on one building amidst the housing You might see me, wishing to take flight...

Spring's night

I boarded the night train after having dinner with my mates in Burnaby, still feeling stuffed from the generous helping of Tempura, Salmon sashimi and loads of sushi.  I really should not have eaten so much but then again who doesn't when it comes to buffet?  Feeling much better with this thought I walked up the stairs to the platform.  I waited for the train to arrive with the cold night wind blowing softly against my face.  With my headphones stuck in my head and playing some jazz and strangers brushing my shoulder as they pass I stared into the night.  The dazzling city lights glows in a distance almost like Christmas tree decoration, pretty indeed.

At a moment like this, you stare at your phone hoping it will ring but it didn't so you would not feel lonely.  I took a deep breath and boarded the train which was nearly empty.  The moon was perfectly round and it wasn't long before I find myself lost in my thoughts and really wishing that I was not alone on this train bound for loneliness.  This is really the time when all sorts of big questions start to surface and I find myself lost not knowing the answer to them.  My heart sank when I know that really it is me here alone with a handful of friends.  The feeling of restriction, emptiness came gushing like a fountain into me and I had to keep it out by focusing on my dreams.

I smiled at the pathetic me.  What is all this nonsense that I am going through?  Well, tonight is a night where I shall let whatever that comes flowing towards me be.  A day has come to an end when I stepped out of the train.  Again I took a deep breath and walked into the night.. with a smile and my music still playing.  

Moving

I may have botched things,
so Im a little frustrated,
But I havent give up yet
Im gonna clear up theses muddled dreams
like a fog lifting, just you watch
Until I move ahead with a step
and then the next
though I may be going slowly
Im still moving forward
at my own pace
Its because I have these tears
that I can take the next steps
I am clearly aware
that I am moving forward
towards the light

The soft glow of the computer screen filled the room and I was seating on the floor thinking of what I should write about.  I guess I'll let you know a little about my current life in Canada *winks.

A month has passed since I left Malaysia for Canada and things are going slow here.  However, that aside I must say I am very much fortunate and lucky.  Being totally new and foreign in this land I was welcome into my friend's family.  I was provided with shelter and food and deep down I do not know how can I ever repay this great debt and gratitude.  It was like I am part of a new warm family and that bring great comfort into my lonely soul.  I am indeed touched by the kindness and hospitality shown towards me, so Thank You so much my dear friend Bernard Liew and Family.  I owe you big time bro.

Canada is a... err Vancouver is really a nice place to be in, really it is.  The weather is just right, the scene is beautiful with loads of greens, snowy mountains and crystal clear rivers.  Not to mention the salmon fishes are in abundance here ~~ and errr of course the almighty grizzly bears. *trembles.  Thank god I am not that lucky to bump into one grey furry wall when hiking the mountain... okok..maybe not mountain, more like hill.  However, I must say I am really looking forward to hike up the mountains soon.
Did I mention that the cars here a cheap too?  To hell with Malaysian taxes on cars! Its absurd! A total pathetic to protect out Proton and Perodua market share.  Me myself I had my eyes on the all new Accord~ but well having an eye and having it actually is different plus I haven't really got my driving license here yet. Bummer.  It seems that I have to re-take the driving test here again (oh no!! I can't bribe the officer here with RM50 to pass *sighs).  The nightmare doesn't ends there, it seems for the 1st year with your new license you are NOT able to drive unless you are accompanied by someone who has a valid driving license!  some great law they have here.. and to make matter worst, on the 2nd year, you are only allowed to drive alone and carry passenger that are directly related to you.  WTF?!   You mean I cant fetch my friends and go party for the 2 years?!  @#%^&* !   Which genius gave this idea and whoever is dumb enough to make this as a law!
Feel my pain?  Sigh~ here isn't really Malaysia where if you break the traffic law everything can be settled with :" Minta maaf bang.  Sorry bang.  Tak ada lain kali ya. " while shaking his hand firmly with a RM100 note in it.

Well, its a new life here folks and I am doing my best to make the most out of it.  Applying to a dozen of companies every single day has somehow became my daily routine. So, wish me luck readers.  I have a dream and I intend to make it a reality...

Cheers to that mate!  *knocks your glass and bottoms up

Comfort

There are people in the world that can know no misery and they take comfort in chirping birds and beautiful stories.  There too are people who know that they are mysteries to be solved and they take comfort in writing down the important evidence.  There are also people who knows that they are always something, something to invent, something to read, something to say and something to do to make a sanctuary no matter how small or insignificant it may seems.  


At times the world can seem an unfriendly and sinister place, but believe me that they are much more good in it than bad.  All you have to do is look hard enough.  And what might seems to be a series of unfortunate events may in fact be the first steps of the journey.


I may not know the door to wisdom and the key to life.  But I know this one thing, that if I look hard enough, that if I have faith and believe so strong that will glow in the depths of winter storm.  Eventually, we will stand on our dreams.

To you

A message to you readers. Ladies, gentlemen, boys and girls.
I acknowledge your existence and do appreciate your contribution to my humble blog.  Really, I started blogging a few years ago solely to have fun but over the years I have came to an understanding that this is no longer just a place for me to have fun, it slowly transformed into a place I share my thoughts, experience to you my fellow readers and a reminder to the future me.

And I have to say that without your keen interest and loyal support I would have never came this far.  So a big THANK Y.O.U!!
Do share with your mates if you find any of the post interesting and worth sharing.  I would be honored.
Till my next post.  Take care

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An enchanted moment

Blinking stepping into the sun

With the sun rolling sky high

It’s the leap of faith

I look all around me

On this path unwinding

Some of us will sway and fall

And yet some sail through the trouble

Somewhere out there,

Relentlessly searching for that precious stone

In that big somewhere out there

Keep your head above the water

Till we find our place of peace...

-Mnpl